Monthly Archives: October 2004

Death of a Baby

[ from the dept. ]

Today, whilst volunteering, a man ran into the cafe I was in for lunch with a bundle. It was a baby and it had stopped breathing. It was already blue and his eyes were bloodshot red. It wasn’t that old, it did not even have teeth yet, and was quite small. We tried to revive that little girl, but we did not seem to have success. the ambulance took ages, the man (savior) nearly collapsed into a shock, too. He did CPR whilst luckily enough a nurse was in the cafe, too, she did mouth to mouth whilst i tried to find the pulse. The mother said she carried it along in a sling, and noticed that the baby did not respond anymore. I don’t know what happened. I think it was already dead for a while, but it was getting cold whilst we were trying to revive it.

The nurse was amazing, she did know how many CPR and mouth to mouh and what to look for. The man was great, too, without him, I think there would not have been made any attempt to revive the baby at all. I was quite wondering about the mum, who seemed to be quite disengaged with the whole effort we were putting in and with the baby, but maybe she was already in a kind of trance or shock or something.
The ambulance came and tried to revive it, but i think they weren’t able to either.
What a nightmare to happen.


On a different note my carpet tiles have finally arrived. We were quite worried that the internet company was a legitimate business, but it was good to get them in the end. They were quite cheap compared to normally. If you are madly keen to get carpet tiles then go to and in the present state they will make you a nice quote and send you the tiles as quick as possible.

Latest development: tenants meeting, on work and workshops, ESF and suing the FB

[ from the dept. ]

I am on some work experience now – for a charity with prospect of a proper job, maybe; luckily it is only part-time so far,because it really is quite stressfull having some work and a strain to anticapitalist activities.
So far I could quite well keep up with it just by working quicker, more focussed and spending less time on the Internet nor in front of the television.
but have agreed to host at least 4 workshops in the forthcoming weeks and really need to sort out events, publicity and similar.
However, it is now really annoying when I plan to stay in to wait for something like plumber/parceldelivery/electrician and they just don’t come at all, or at totally different times.
Indymedia Scotland is having too much downtime. Hopefully it is not because of this anti-DADA database killing thingy going round, I tried to post an article about anti – rubbish dump actions, and it just seems to be impossible this evening. I tried on Indymedia Uk, too, but it also seems strained.
Have applied for a press card to sue the FBI or whoever took the Indymedia servers. Well, not sure if I am or – hopefully some group is then suing on my behalf, or if it will be an Indy group activity. Well, I always wanted to sue the FBI- it is must have point in the C.V. of activists.
So, there is so much to do – will try to get on with stuff. Still haven’t finished my write up of the ESF, and there is so much rubbish coming out now (or better said, a vivid discussion with the fans of the SWP is going on) that it would be appropriate just to post something.
Anyway, it is interesting to read on jebbas blog the top 30 of press freedom. Though in my experience UK is much better than Germany. But maybe because of the Indymedia UK server seizures they just fell down to place 30, after Trinidad and Tobago.
Anyway there was a tenants group meeting today, I left after about 10 minutes because the invited policeman and his talk just sucked!

The conscience

[ from the dept. ]

“Nothing is more difficult and nothing requires more character than to find oneself in open opposition to one’s time and to say loudly: NO! .”
Germany, 1933
German political satirist and journalist (1890-1935)

I am trying to find Tucholsky’s text about the politician and his conscience; it goes like that: at first he is proud of it and shows it off, then he makes more an more compromises and put it away in his handbag, then he leaves it on his desk, then in the shelf on show, and, at last he is hiding it behind and under all his books in the cupboard.

Unfotunately i can’t find it at the moment again.


[ from the dept. ]

My god, this last week was smashing. Never before in my life I have had such a week, turning over my life perception and attitude again. I am still too exhausted really to digest it and write about, and when coming home, there is seldom time enough to go over everything again and to work through it, as well as there are mostly not the mates around who shared the same experience with you, who could REALLY talk everything through with you and understand and critisise precisely.

Well, one good thing I know in a way now, that there is some kind of weird crazy courage inside of me – I always thought I would be a scary useless whimp really, and still no clue when this stupid bravery thing pops its nose out when I’d be actually closer to pissing myself, but fact is, it does exist, I know it now.

confusion on the FBI raid

It is still in discussion what happened when where and why and by whom concerning the ahimsa hard disks. new updates suggest the France/Imc Nantes connection as maybe not the main factor, apparantly their lawyer hadn’t got the necessary documents together yet.

Another suggestion is that it could be connected still with Diebold against Indymedia on behalf of the electronic voting machines being suspected of enabling electoral fraud.

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