Ulla’s Amazing Wee Blog

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Today, whilst volunteering, a man ran into the cafe I was in for lunch with a bundle. It was a baby and it had stopped breathing. It was already blue and his eyes were bloodshot red. It wasn’t that old, it did not even have teeth yet, and was quite small. We tried to revive that little girl, but we did not seem to have success. the ambulance took ages, the man (savior) nearly collapsed into a shock, too. He did CPR whilst luckily enough a nurse was in the cafe, too, she did mouth to mouth whilst i tried to find the pulse. The mother said she carried it along in a sling, and noticed that the baby did not respond anymore. I don’t know what happened. I think it was already dead for a while, but it was getting cold whilst we were trying to revive it.

The nurse was amazing, she did know how many CPR and mouth to mouh and what to look for. The man was great, too, without him, I think there would not have been made any attempt to revive the baby at all. I was quite wondering about the mum, who seemed to be quite disengaged with the whole effort we were putting in and with the baby, but maybe she was already in a kind of trance or shock or something.
The ambulance came and tried to revive it, but i think they weren’t able to either.
What a nightmare to happen.

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On a different note my carpet tiles have finally arrived. We were quite worried that the internet company was a legitimate business, but it was good to get them in the end. They were quite cheap compared to normally. If you are madly keen to get carpet tiles then go to http://www.discountcarpettiles.co.uk/ and in the present state they will make you a nice quote and send you the tiles as quick as possible.

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I am on some work experience now – for a charity with prospect of a proper job, maybe; luckily it is only part-time so far,because it really is quite stressfull having some work and a strain to anticapitalist activities.
So far I could quite well keep up with it just by working quicker, more focussed and spending less time on the Internet nor in front of the television.
but have agreed to host at least 4 workshops in the forthcoming weeks and really need to sort out events, publicity and similar.
However, it is now really annoying when I plan to stay in to wait for something like plumber/parceldelivery/electrician and they just don’t come at all, or at totally different times.
Indymedia Scotland is having too much downtime. Hopefully it is not because of this anti-DADA database killing thingy going round, I tried to post an article about anti – rubbish dump actions, and it just seems to be impossible this evening. I tried on Indymedia Uk, too, but it also seems strained.
Have applied for a press card to sue the FBI or whoever took the Indymedia servers. Well, not sure if I am or – hopefully some group is then suing on my behalf, or if it will be an Indy group activity. Well, I always wanted to sue the FBI- it is must have point in the C.V. of activists.
So, there is so much to do – will try to get on with stuff. Still haven’t finished my write up of the ESF, and there is so much rubbish coming out now (or better said, a vivid discussion with the fans of the SWP is going on) that it would be appropriate just to post something.
Anyway, it is interesting to read on jebbas blog the top 30 of press freedom. Though in my experience UK is much better than Germany. But maybe because of the Indymedia UK server seizures they just fell down to place 30, after Trinidad and Tobago.
Anyway there was a tenants group meeting today, I left after about 10 minutes because the invited policeman and his talk just sucked!

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“Nothing is more difficult and nothing requires more character than to find oneself in open opposition to one’s time and to say loudly: NO! .”
Kurt TUCHOLSKY
Germany, 1933
German political satirist and journalist (1890-1935)

I am trying to find Tucholsky’s text about the politician and his conscience; it goes like that: at first he is proud of it and shows it off, then he makes more an more compromises and put it away in his handbag, then he leaves it on his desk, then in the shelf on show, and, at last he is hiding it behind and under all his books in the cupboard.

Unfotunately i can’t find it at the moment again.

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My god, this last week was smashing. Never before in my life I have had such a week, turning over my life perception and attitude again. I am still too exhausted really to digest it and write about, and when coming home, there is seldom time enough to go over everything again and to work through it, as well as there are mostly not the mates around who shared the same experience with you, who could REALLY talk everything through with you and understand and critisise precisely.

Well, one good thing I know in a way now, that there is some kind of weird crazy courage inside of me – I always thought I would be a scary useless whimp really, and still no clue when this stupid bravery thing pops its nose out when I’d be actually closer to pissing myself, but fact is, it does exist, I know it now.

It is still in discussion what happened when where and why and by whom concerning the ahimsa hard disks. new updates suggest the France/Imc Nantes connection as maybe not the main factor, apparantly their lawyer hadn’t got the necessary documents together yet.

Another suggestion is that it could be connected still with Diebold against Indymedia on behalf of the electronic voting machines being suspected of enabling electoral fraud.

Updates via: http://docs.indymedia.org/view/Global/WhoTookAhimsa

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As if this day wasn’t boring enough, the FBI raided ahimsa harddisks, and amongst others, stopped Indymedia UK from functioning for quite a while. At such moments I am so extremely happy that we now have our independent Indymedia Scotland site, which stays up and can be used in such emergencies; however, in such moments it seems everybody helps together to get another site up and functioning as soon as possible. In these repressive moments the solidarity between Indymedia volunteers could not be stronger, it is in such moments of emergency crisis that I love the Indymedia network most.
On a slightly different note, I might have a new job soon, somebody saw me during political organising and was so impressed he offered me a job in a charity organisation. I hope that will come true and will be as good as imagined, though not sure, depending as usually in such sectors on if funding for specific projects comes through or not.
Also I started reading again, which I am very happy about.

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Am still pretty exhausted from the Big Blether weekend, particularly as I had a fever, which is completely odd if you are camping and you are cold at the back, warm on the front and have a glowing hot head sticking out in the cold. Also I got drunk, which helped to sleep through in the slightly wet tent and supported the transport costs of the helpers with the marquee and geodome, as they were running a raffle beer bar, but added to a huge headache on the sunday to run around with an ataxia similar to the BSE enduced spongioform encephalitis. Camping was not fun, as it was raining nearly without a break, it was muddy wet and cold, luckily there were some beds available, though it was a bit tricky, because people were supposed to pay 12 pounds a night. The workshops were great, the spontaneous ceilidh Saturday evening was good fun and the food prices were tremendously low, such as 30 p for a soup and 5 p for a toast. Totally contradictory to the last Big Blether where a soup was about 2 pounds and breakfast something like 3.50- though with egg and bacon (which probably already says a lot). Anyway there are some pictures up on Indymedia Scotland.
The local community in Culdees really threw themselves into the organisation of the gathering and helped tremendously and were very friendly and welcoming.
Anyway there has been a suggestion made to have the next Dissent! gathering camping again end of November in West Wales – guess I’ll give it a miss….

At this point I would really like to slagg of somebody who is always moaning, but whom I can’t see doing anything constructive, positive and empowering, it goes on my nerves and it is really not good for the movement, imho.
It is even worse to know that the person really wants the best for the movement, but with critisising everybody in a devaluating way it makes me nearly want to drop out of politics, too… luckily enough I am usually able to avoid this person very well.